until you identify the pattern, you are the pattern.
My late grandmother Dominga is my chosen spirit guide. She has been for a while now. She tells me my gifts are part of my inheritance from my maternal lineage.
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My Legacy
My late grandmother Dominga is my chosen spirit guide. She has been for a while now. She tells me my gifts are part of my inheritance from my maternal lineage.
My biological sisters also carry these gifts, passed down through the feminine of our bloodline, but they’ve chosen not to develop them. Not yet. I see the potential in them. I know it’s there. But potential is only that, until it's nurtured with consciousness and care.
That’s why my grandmother Dominga gave me overtime in this lifetime.
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To be a cycle breaker.
To create change in generational patterns that went unnoticed, unspoken, unfelt. Patterns that rot beneath the silence.
Her first assignment? Understand the patterns that no one wants to recognize. Feel what no one dares to feel. So it can be healed.
I chose to do both. And I chose to speak on it.
The audacity I carry, the courage I embody, to name what I see in my family... it’s wild. So wild, I became the truth teller. The kind of truth teller that gets you exiled from dysfunctional family unions.
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Dominga Aguilar
maternal grandmother
My grandmother Dominga comes to me in dreams, in quiet reflections, sometimes through women who channel her messages for me.
The most recent pattern she revealed cracked open a chain that had bound five generations of women in my bloodline.
The belief:
“To be loved, I must shrink or beg.”
My great-grandmother: A widow with three young children. R*ped by her brother-in-law while living in her sister's home after her husband passed.
When she told her sister, she was not believed. She was discarded. Put out on the street with my grandfather in her womb. Invisible. Surviving.
Bernada Salarza
maternal great-grandmother
Bernada Salarza
maternal great-grandmother
My grandmother:
A virgin in her early twenties.
R*ped by the man who would be her husband.
Married to him not out of love, but out of shame, because she was now “ruined” for any other man.
She hid her pregnancy and passed on that shame to her unborn child - my mother.
My mother:
Pregnant at 18,
In love with a man who loved many.
Unmarried, ashamed.
Hiding her pregnancy until the eighth month.
Shrinking, making herself small, hoping to be chosen.
My sister:
18 and pregnant.
Hid it from our mother until the third month.
Beaten by her child’s father.
Left for dead at eight months pregnant.
She shrinks to survive.
My niece:
My sister’s daughter.
Pregnant at 24.
Hid it too.
The father cheats and lies.
She gives birth without a partner, wondering how she ended up there.
She shrinks, still begging to be loved.
My grandmother:
A virgin in her early twenties.
R*ped by the man who would be her husband.
Married to him not out of love, but out of shame, because she was now “ruined” for any other man.
She hid her pregnancy and passed on that shame to her unborn child - my mother.
My mother:
Pregnant at 18,
In love with a man who loved many.
Unmarried, ashamed.
Hiding her pregnancy until the eighth month.
Shrinking, making herself small, hoping to be chosen.
My sister:
18 and pregnant.
Hid it from our mother until the third month.
Beaten by her child’s father.
Left for dead at eight months pregnant.
She shrinks to survive.
My niece:
My sister’s daughter.
Pregnant at 24.
Hid it too.
The father cheats and lies.
She gives birth without a partner, wondering how she ended up there.
She shrinks, still begging to be loved.
Bernada Salarza
maternal great-grandmother
Five generations of women shrinking, hiding, trying to be loved through silence and survival. I chose different.
My second sight is my inheritance.
My voice is my gift.
My healing is my rebellion.
My grandmother in spirit confirms this.
I speak with them,
but I do not repeat them.
I speak on it.
I speak through it.
I speak beyond it.
I chose to identify the pattern so I would no longer be the pattern.
the pattern ends with me.
And that is how legacies are rewritten.
Berta Campos
maternal great-aunt
My Roots
2nd great grandmother
3rd great grandmother
great grandmother
Ancestral Regions of My Lineage
Indigineous americas
Mexico
66%
iberian peninsula
Portugal
4%
Basque
3%
Northern Spain
3%
Spain
3%
celtic & gaelic
North East Scotland
4%
Ireland
3%
Northern Wales & North West England
3%
western europe
France
3%
Southerns Germanic Europe
2%
west africa
Senegal
2%
Ivory Coast & Ghana
1%
northern africa
North Africa
2%
southeastern europe
Slovenia
1%
Southwestern Balkans
1%
central africa
Western Bantu People
1%
source: ancestory.com
Ancestral Regions of My Lineage
Indigineous americas
Mexico
66%
iberian peninsula
Portugal
4%
Basque
3%
Northern Spain
3%
Spain
3%
celtic & gaelic
North East Scotland
4%
Ireland
3%
Northern Wales & North West England
3%
western europe
France
3%
Southerns Germanic Europe
2%
west africa
Senegal
2%
Ivory Coast & Ghana
1%
northern africa
North Africa
2%
southeastern europe
Slovenia
1%
Southwestern Balkans
1%
central africa
Western Bantu People
1%
source: ancestory.com
Ancestral Regions of My Lineage
My Roots
2nd great grandmother
3rd great grandmother
great grandmother
Paternal Lineage
Bernada Salarza
great-grandmother
Manuel Portillo
great-grandfather
Juliana Portillo
Salazar
grandmother
Manuel Lopez
grandfather
Paula Hernandez
great-grandmother
Felix Lopez
great-grandfather
Octaviano Lopez
Portillo
father
Paternal Lineage
Bernada Salarza
Great-grandmother
Manuel Portillo
Great-grandfather
Juliana Portillo
Salazar
Grandmother
Manuel Lopez
Grandfather
Paula Hernandez
Great-grandmother
Felix Lopez
Great-grandfather
Octaviano Lopez
Portillo
Father
Maternal Lineage
Claudio Aguilar
great-grandmother
Gloria Mora de Aguilar
great-grandfather
Dominga Aguilar de Campos
grandmother
Enrique Campos Gomez
grandfather
Jeronimo Gomez
great-grandmother
Guillermina Campos
great-grandfather
Ana Bertha Campos Lopez
mother
Jeronimo Gomez
great-grandmother
Guillermina Campos
great-grandfather
Gloria Mora de Aguilar
Maternal Lineage
Claudio Aguilar
Great-grandmother
Gloria Mora de Aguilar
Great-grandfather
Dominga Aguilar de Campos
Grandmother
Enrique Campos Gomez
Grandfather
Jeronimo Gomez
great-grandmother
Guillermina Campos
great-grandfather
Ana Bertha Campos Lopez
Mother
Jeronimo Gomez
Great-grandmother
Guillermina Campos
Great-grandfather
Gloria Mora de Aguilar
My great grandmother Dominga comes to me in dreams, in quiet reflections, sometimes through women who channel her messages for me.
The most recent pattern she revealed cracked open a chain that had bound five generations of women in my bloodline.
The belief:
My great-grandmother: A widow with three young children. R*ped by her brother-in-law while living in her sister's home after her husband passed.
When she told her sister, she was not believed. She was discarded. Put out on the street with my grandfather in her womb. Invisible. Surviving.
When she told her sister, she was not believed. She was discarded. Put out on the street with my grandfather in her womb. Invisible. Surviving.
When she told her sister, she was not believed.
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Consciously Chosen
My great grandmother Dominga comes to me in dreams, in quiet reflections, sometimes through women who channel her messages for me.
The most recent pattern she revealed cracked open a chain that had bound five generations of women in my bloodline.
The belief:.
“To be loved, I must shrink or beg.”
My great-grandmother: A widow with three young children. R*ped by her brother-in-law while living in her sister's home after her husband passed.
When she told her sister, she was not believed. She was discarded. Put out on the street with my grandfather in her womb. Invisible. Surviving.
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Inherited
